Monday, April 4, 2011

Life As I Know It.

     My stuff is being sorted into boxes, those boxes are being sorted into leave or keep piles, those boxes that say keep are my life as I know it. This room, it's walls are becoming bare and white again. My cat walks in wide eyed as he stares at the different picture this room now paints. He paws at the corners of the cardboard and sniffs the floor where things once sat.
     My parents are losing a daughter, sooner than expected. This was never their plan, this was never mine, but here it is. It is here in these boxes, it is here in the little brown house with the little white swing, it is here in the rain outside my window, in the breaking of my heart. I often wonder if I made the wrong choice, if I should of listened to my sister, if I should of gone to college, if I should of just stayed here in my comfort...but it's done, the decisions made, the key has been passed into my palm and in a few short days this will be the end of life as I know it, and my new life will begin.
  Tonight was the first time I realized that, and tonight was the first time I cried about it.
-Toby K.


  1. don't ever regret this. i think often of the infamous theodore roosevelt quote and how it ends. I would rather TRY then fade away with the poor and timid souls that knew neither victory nor defeat.
    It is a boring life to live a life that is consistent and fits just so in the little box we put it in.
    Enjoy spreading your wings love. Its gonna be a fun ride.

  2. I agree with the first comment, if change is for the better, celebrate it :)